ASS OR GAS,NOBODY RIDES FOR FREE

I'm trying to start a blog, and don't even know how to use a computer correctly. Man, this is hard. It's like going back to college.I've been ruuning around like a dog chasing his tail. Shit, man, I just want to write. I have a lot bottled up. It's been 30 years since my mind felt this good. No alcohol. No drugs. My head is clear, and I wake up, and time has left me in the fucking dust. Whew! Need to quit sweraring, they tell me. Me, quit swearing,or you kidding? I'll give it the ole' college try but, no promises, O.K. Now, I have to navigate this fuc, wait a minute, I can do this, this , internet, yeah, that's better, right. It ain't easy, brother. I've been in a fog for a long time. TIME. What a word. Even TIME, is hard. I'm going to be 55 next week, and I feel like my mind is 16. Why? somebody open some doors for me. My little mind won't, or don't want, me to do this. It wants to go back to the fog. It's easier on the mind. Doesn't have to work too hard. Sits around. Gets lazy. I'm excerising muscle's that have been dead for 30 fucking years , and yeah, I meant "fucking" years because dammit, it has been. Who's fault is that? Mine,brother. But, I got a new lease on life, and I'm not letting go for nobody. Man, had to stop and get some coffee, calms my nearves. No, really. After all I been through, and believe me when I tell you, I've been through some shit, coffee is a zanex. Smoking. I'm trying to quit that to. No, not that too.! Man, I'm trying to run three blogs, quick drinking, smoking, and start writing, and my body doesn't work. It takes me three pain pills, a cup of coffee and 45 minutes, just to get out of bed. I'm not whinning. I do not whine. I'm stating a fact. This is hard. But, and don't you know, there's always a but, I'm going to do this. Back 30 years ago I could multi-task my ass off. I was GOOD> Yeah, that's right. I could operate. You couldn't keep up with me. You. Yeah, you mother', wait a minute, friend. I'm going to do this. If you want to take a ride, cuz, get on the bus, because it's leaving the station. OH, and buy a ticket, ass or gas, nobody rides for free!!!

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